More Tests

Sorry if I'm repeating myself. I can't remember if I mentioned that my feet used to be really bad before I had my P.E. After my P.E. my feet suddenly got better. Since they changed my meds recently my feet have been acting up again. I'm not sure why. I'm sure it has something to do with the lowering of my blood thinners. But my doctor never wants to listen to me. I had an ultra sound done on my legs today and at least they're clear of blood clots. I don't know what else to do about it though. Just give up on walking cause soon they'll be just as bad as they used to be or ignore them and hope they don't continue down the path of pain.

Determined

I have a vacation planned for the last weekend in June. I'm determined to go on that vacation. Last year I had to cancel and was kind of a good thing cause I was in the hospital the next weekend with the Pulmonary Embolisms. I have the time off this year. I got new shoes. My husband bought a new car. We are all kinds of ready for this thing. Then I was diagnosed with gallstones. Many of you are probably thinking something along these lines. Gallstones aren't really a big deal. Gallstones are inconvenient at best. And in many cases you'd be right. But I never do anything that easy traditional way. No, my doctor wants to dick around and play with alternative answers. He wants to check out other possibilities. Normally, I'd be all over this, test away. But see I have this vacation. I'm going on this vacation. My husband is worried I'll be several states away from my doctor when my gallbladder ruptures and I end up in a hospital very very far away. I see his point. I feel is worry. I'm going on this vacation. Now I just have to pretend I'm not in lots of pain and nauseated beyond belief for the next month to convince him we're going on this vacation.

New Doctors New Pain

Why is it that having a new doctor means starting over? I now have to go through a ton of crap test and medicine to prove this is my gallbladder. Oh, are we sure it isn't acid reflex. Come on guys. This is nausea which is apparently a rare symptom of heart burn. I have heart burn like once a month. This nausea is the gallbladder. Can't we just take it out and go from there. I hate this. Hate it. So now I get to have a camera put down my throat and have a looksey at my tummy to make sure it's not an ulcer. What?? Since when did this present like an ulcer. I have gallstones. You can point to them on the scan. Take it out jerk. Ahhhhhhh.

Gallstones

So, for those of you who don't know Gallstones are pebble like deposits in the gallbladder. They can be very painful. They can lead to more dangerous problems like rupturing of the gallbladder or infections. There is something like an 80% chance that they'll want to remove the gallbladder if you have symptoms from gallstones. There are non surgical options but from the reading I've been doing they're not very effective.

I'll let you know what my doctor says when I see him in the afternoon. I'm very happy that I have my neighbor who works in the hospital all my doctors do.

http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddiseases/pubs/gallstones/
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/gallstones/DS00165

It's Official

So my doctor calls me last wednesday at 7pm and leaves a message on my phone. Now, I'm kind of happy she left the message cause I didn't want to go a week before I found out (She only has office hours once a week). But the message sent me into a new depression. She leaves a message saying You have gallstones, fatty tissue in your liver, and protean s deficiency. If you have any questions give me a call at ***-***-****. Of course it's late and no one is there to answer the phone. She went on to say that I should see the G.I. on the 2nd of June. I wasn't waiting. The next morning I called the G.I. people and have a new apt for the 24th. Hopefully I'll know more soon.

I Got Distracted

I'm awful. My husband was so worried last night. I went out with my brother and forgot to tell him that I got there ok. My husband stayed up to late waiting for my txt. I feel awful about it. He says I've done it three times. I don't know if he's right or not. I can only plead forgetfulness and illness. I feel really bad about it but I don't think there is anything for me to do about it now.

On another note my doctor called and left a msg for me last night. I do have gallstones and apparently fatty tissue in my liver. I'm going to hound my GI and see when I can get in before the 2nd.

Most Depressing Version Of The 12 Days of Xmas

I have been sicker and sicker lately. The doctor had an ultra sound of my abdomen done. I got the tech to talk. Turns out I have gallstones. Cause what I needed was another illness to with all the others. I mean who gets kidney stones, gallstones, pulmonary embolisms, scoliosis, allergies, etc... the list goes on. Does my body have some list of demands it's got posted somewhere in my body but the doctors just haven't found it yet? They tested me for every known autoimmune disorder out there and nothing. I don't know what to do anymore. I think if I just went to sleep and failed to wake up one day it might be a blessing.

Cyst Rupture

I had a cyst that suddenly got inflamed and after a few days ruptured. While it was inflamed it hurt like a zit in your waist band. It also kind of smelled. The puss was off white and there was a significant amount of blood. It is really gross. I'm keeping it clean and washing it often. Hopefully it heals up quickly. They say you can't have sex while the cyst is healing.

New Job

I need to find a new job. I've been with the company I work for for ten years. I've been stuck in the same position for 5 years. I have been told by my manager that he wont be promoting me. I've hit the ceiling for pay and can't make any more unless I get promoted. I need the health insurance cause I'm sick all the time. I just wanna quit and take my chances but I can't take that kind of risk. FML

Concern About Coming Appointment

I have a new appointment on wednesday. I'm tired of appointments. I meet with my hematologist at 8am. They had a diagnosis for me and then they sent me a letter saying they'd been wrong. I don't think it was on purpose. I don't think she was just trying to get rid of me for months. I made them move up the appointment.

I'm sore all the time. I hurt all the time. Sometimes I feel as if I could just lay down and die. Sleep the long sleep. Now, before anyone gets up in arms thinking I'm going to kill myself. No worries. I think it's wrong to kill yourself. I just feel that if I wasn't trying so hard I wouldn't be alive. Like I've been willing myself to live and if I stopped I would just stop. I've been so sick.

Bed Ridden

I've been stuck in bed for days. Given that fact this blog should have been well tended by me but sorry alas I was to depressed to write. I've been in pain for days. My lungs have been hurting really bad. I wish there was something for me to do other than rest and take pills. I see my doctor next week. I don't know what they'll tell me. I can't imagine it'll be good. I hate it.

Decisions

I decided not to go to the ER on Friday. The pain came and went. It's still coming and going. I'm waiting until the doctor appointments next week. I don't really want to go in early. I'm afraid I might be throwing more clots but at the same time I don't wanna go in to find I'm just over reacting. I don't know what to think or do anymore. I hate it.

I have a doctor apt with my hemotologist on the 11th and my cardiovascular doctor on the 19th. Hopefully I'll know more then.

Current condition - I've had to take 2 oxy today. I last took one at 10 and I still have a burning pain in my right side. I had a sharp pain in my left bicep earlier. I don't wanna go to bed right now cause laying down hurts more.

When Do You Go To ER?

I spent a really annoying day Friday. I woke up sore over my of my torso. I decided I'd over done things. I figured I'd been at the house work to hard. After all, I spent 2 days cleaning up and doing laundry. I was up and down the stairs over and over again. For most of the day I was fine with moments of OMG that hurts. At night, when I was about to go to sleep, I got really short of breath. It feels like I have bronchitis to go with the scar tissue in my lungs. No fever though so I'm currently holding off on going to the ER. That may change by morning. If I have to call in sick again I think that will mean I'm going to the hospital though.