Why Do I Eat?

I swear I'm going to give up eating. Ok, maybe right after I have the roast I so lovingly made for my husband that he didn't like. Thinks I over cooked it. I think it's perfect. Shrugs, I'll eat it. It's probably going to leave me rolling around the floor in pain though. It seems that the good feelings I had while at AnthroCon was because I kept forgetting to eat. Now that I'm back to eating 3 meals a day I'm in pain all the time. Why do I do this to myself? I feel bad so I eat. Eating makes me feel bad. I feel bad so I eat. It's a never ending cycle.