Breast Feeding In Public Part 2

It came to my attention that somehow this site is connected to my other site. It wasn't supposed to be viewable by my friends and family. Now, I want to let my friends know that part of the post may have been miss worded. Let me try to be clearer.

It's not a naked boob with a baby attached in a seat at a restaurant that makes me say get thee a towel. It's not someone seated in my home that has been invited in who has a baby and that child removes the blanket that I think about at that moment. No it's the woman who traps me at my register while her husband silently pleads with me not to make a big deal of her non baby attached nipple swinging out for the baby to attach to whenever it feels the need that makes me say dear gawd woman cover the F up. There is a camera taping that moment. Do you, as a woman, really want your nipple on record for management to stare at later? She was practically daring me to make a deal of it and I didn't. I refused to give her the satisfaction and then I came home and silently complained about it in what I thought was a anonymous forum that would get little to no views. I should have known better.

And for people who think that a boob loses it's attractiveness when I baby is attached, it doesn't. I have a horribly hard time not staring at a breast while a mom is nursing and if I glance to long I'm suddenly the one in the wrong. It's the same thing as writing something across your boobs or butt. I'm going to read it.

Sorry for the misunderstanding.

Pneumonia

On Thursday, I went to the doctor and saw a doctor associated with my primary. I should have waited a day and seen my doctor. She might have ordered the x-ray that would have showed the pneumonia earlier and saved me days worth of high fever and ick. I told the new lady that my history was complicated but she just took a short listen to my lungs and said Upper Respiratory Infection. Just get lots of rest and fluids. I might have pushed for more if I had felt on Thursday how I felt on Friday. Instead, I had a fever of 102 +, for 3 days before I gave in and went to the ER. Turns out that I have Pneumonia not a URI. Now I go to my doctor on wednesday for a double check but so far I feel I'm getting better.

Why Do I Eat?

I swear I'm going to give up eating. Ok, maybe right after I have the roast I so lovingly made for my husband that he didn't like. Thinks I over cooked it. I think it's perfect. Shrugs, I'll eat it. It's probably going to leave me rolling around the floor in pain though. It seems that the good feelings I had while at AnthroCon was because I kept forgetting to eat. Now that I'm back to eating 3 meals a day I'm in pain all the time. Why do I do this to myself? I feel bad so I eat. Eating makes me feel bad. I feel bad so I eat. It's a never ending cycle.

Over Now Please

Ok, so I understand that the doctor wants to do lots of testing and make sure there was nothing else wrong that could be causing problems. I get that. I am so done with testing. I don't wanna pay so much in tests that I can no longer afford to get my gallbladder taken care of. I need this done. I feel sick and hurt lots. My side is uncomfortable lots of time. My best days were the days I was at anthrocon and kept forgetting to eat. Not eating is the only thing that keeps me feeling ok. Sigh. Cheese, Chocolate, and Coffee my dear friends, I wish I could see you more.

Breast Feeding In Public

In honor of the 4th of July I'm going to tackle a rights issue currently blowing up in MI.

Breast feeding in public is legal in MI (I believe this is standard in most states) but does that make it right. Now, before you get all up in arms, I'm not attacking a moms right to feed their baby. Find a corner, sit down for a moment, cover up with a blanket, and feed your baby. Heck walk around getting stuff done while breast feeding but put a cover over your baby and your tit. I don't need to see it. You don't want me to stare at it. If I looked at your tit while you were feeding your baby and say "Nice boob." You'd be mad. If you would be mad at me commenting on it I shouldn't be able to see it. I don't see what the issue is with getting one of those covers to put over your breast. Go to the salvation army and buy a towel.

http://www.toysrus.com/search/index.jsp?kwCatId=&kw=nursing%20covers&origkw=nursing+covers&f=Taxonomy/TRUS/2255957&sr=1

OBGYN

So I saw my OBGYN on tuesday. It was a good news bad news visit. I can go ahead and have a baby. I can stay on arixtra. However, AriXtra does travel the placenta. It hasn't been found to cause birth defects but they've really only had case studies and no long term data. Something might happen that can't be predicted. If I go back on the Lovenox as the doctor would like I'll be sick as sick can be and might lose the baby. If I don't I might be endangering my baby later in life. Just kill me will you. Oh and the GI doctor has to figure out what the F he plans to do about my gallstones. If I need surgery I need to before baby or it has to wait til afterward.

Vacation

I went on vacation this weekend and had so much fun. We left thursday morning early and just got back into town this afternoon. I only had one bad day. I had some coffee and pizza in one day and suddenly I felt awful. I'm debating changing my diet. It's always something I swore I'd never do. I love cheese, chocolate, and coffee. I'm thinking about seriously limiting how much of those things I eat. It makes me feel icky.

You're What?

So my sister and I don't really get along. She's got middle child syndrome and I'm your typical eldest child. So we clash. On top of that I'm 5'9", with dirty blond hair, overweight, and I'm glad grand tracks of land. My sister is 5'7", blond hair, 95 lbs soaking wet, and with no boobs (see weight). So, there's some body issues on both sides. Her husband, her, and her kid lives in my parents house. She's been talking about wanting to have a second child. I thought there is no way that someone would go about having a child while living with their parents. After all, my parents can't possibly be happy having a screaming two year old in their house already. Why would you bring another child into their house? Yesterday my sister called me and told me she is pregnant again. On top of that, she wants me to be the godmother. I said yes. I may hate my sister but I love her too. She's my sister. But dear gawd get your own place. Stop giving Mom and Dad a hard time by living in two of their rooms. You don't need that stress either.

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/14335112/ns/today-parenting/t/what-are-effects-middle-child-syndrome/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aAP3TEE2MDs\

Conscious Sedation

Conscious sedation is wonderful. I had a wonderful nights sleep after my procedure on Friday. I don't even remember them giving my the drugs. I remember the them putting a bite thing in my mouth and then I remember the doctor talking to my husband in the recovery room. We managed to go get some dinner and then off to dream world I was once again. I slept from like 6:30pm til 6:30am. I haven't slept like that since I was a teenager and I'm in my 30's now.

Feel Sick, Feel Sick, Feel Sick

So, in case you didn't get it, I feel sick. I feel so sick I'm worried that I wont get to take my vacation. I worry that I'll be admitted to the hospital tomorrow after my dr's apt. I'm also in a bit of pain. I really want this to stop. Right now, I'm pretty sure that I'd rather be dead then going through this much longer. I'm almost in enough pain to have my husband take me to the hospital. The only reason I'm not current in route is that I'm schedule for a endoscope in the morning.

If 1 Isn't Working Try 2

Or at least that's what my doctor seems to think. I hate it so much. I finally called him and said you know that pill you gave me, well I'm still not feeling better. First of all, I called on Thursday. I finally heard back from him on Monday. If that wasn't bad enough his response was well since one in the morning isn't working try one in the morning and one at night. Right now I feel so sick I pretty sure I'm going to throw up. Pain on the right side and nausea. Yeah, this couldn't possibly be gallstones. Why can't we just take the F'er out. Grrrrrrrrr

Work Sucks

I'm sick of work. I know everyone hates there job. My boss has made it clear I'm not being promoted. At least they're getting me off registers from time to time. It's better then nothing but I just have little to no motivation to work hard. I mean you tell someone btw you can't get anymore raises and I'm not promoting you. What do you think will happen?

Working on my writing. Wish me luck.

It's Not Working

Ok, Mr doctor man, I did it your way. I tried your drug for acid reflex even though there were few to no indications that I have issues with acid reflex. It's not working. My nausea has little to nothing to do with acid reflex. My nausea is because of my Gallstones. I appreciate you not being cut happy and wanted to rule everything out first but lets move forward please.

Closing Time

Dear annoying customer,

I know you want to buy things. I know we're a store. We're closing minutes now. Please, get your bum up to registers and check out. I'm in a lot of pain and I am out of patience to follow you around asking you if you're sure there is nothing I can't help you with.

Ok, Ma'am, We closed five minutes ago. I would really like to get home to see my husband before he goes to sleep. Is there something you need help with? Soon my manager will close the system and we wont be able to ring that massive pile of crap you have in your arms.

WTF! you finally got in line. I thought for sure you were ready to go. I stopped cleaning up and came over to ring you up only to find you still browsing. Is there something you are still looking for?

No, B*tch, we don't have that. We've been closed 10 min now and I have to have this drawer, the safe, the deposit, and the change order counted in 20 minutes now. Can you just bring that crap here? Please.

Finally, you bought your crap. Please, let me help you leave. What was that? a man told you we were closed but you figured you'd enter and shop anyway? Please, just leave.

The Overworked and Underpaid

I Hate The Wait!

As you know, if you've been following my posts, I have gallstones. They hurt a lot. They hurt way more whenever I eat. My doctor is dicking around looking for other possible problems. I always eat when I'm upset or nauseated. When you eat when you have gallstones it's painful and makes you more nauseated. So I get nauseated and I eat and I get more nauseated and I eat and then I'm doubled over in pain. I fear that I'm going to have to cancel my vacation. I'd hate to cancel it. I'm just going to schedule the surgery for the second I come back.

I feel like I've been bitching about the same thing over and over. Sorry.

Say Cheese

On the 17th of June they're going to put me under and then take pictures of my insides. I'm not particularly happy about it. Honestly, I'd prefer not to go through it since I'm sure that I'll wake up during it. I have gallstones and usually they remove the gallbladder to treat that. My doctor wants to rule everything out first. But ruling things out really does seem like it's going to take forever. I hate this.

More Tests

Sorry if I'm repeating myself. I can't remember if I mentioned that my feet used to be really bad before I had my P.E. After my P.E. my feet suddenly got better. Since they changed my meds recently my feet have been acting up again. I'm not sure why. I'm sure it has something to do with the lowering of my blood thinners. But my doctor never wants to listen to me. I had an ultra sound done on my legs today and at least they're clear of blood clots. I don't know what else to do about it though. Just give up on walking cause soon they'll be just as bad as they used to be or ignore them and hope they don't continue down the path of pain.

Determined

I have a vacation planned for the last weekend in June. I'm determined to go on that vacation. Last year I had to cancel and was kind of a good thing cause I was in the hospital the next weekend with the Pulmonary Embolisms. I have the time off this year. I got new shoes. My husband bought a new car. We are all kinds of ready for this thing. Then I was diagnosed with gallstones. Many of you are probably thinking something along these lines. Gallstones aren't really a big deal. Gallstones are inconvenient at best. And in many cases you'd be right. But I never do anything that easy traditional way. No, my doctor wants to dick around and play with alternative answers. He wants to check out other possibilities. Normally, I'd be all over this, test away. But see I have this vacation. I'm going on this vacation. My husband is worried I'll be several states away from my doctor when my gallbladder ruptures and I end up in a hospital very very far away. I see his point. I feel is worry. I'm going on this vacation. Now I just have to pretend I'm not in lots of pain and nauseated beyond belief for the next month to convince him we're going on this vacation.

New Doctors New Pain

Why is it that having a new doctor means starting over? I now have to go through a ton of crap test and medicine to prove this is my gallbladder. Oh, are we sure it isn't acid reflex. Come on guys. This is nausea which is apparently a rare symptom of heart burn. I have heart burn like once a month. This nausea is the gallbladder. Can't we just take it out and go from there. I hate this. Hate it. So now I get to have a camera put down my throat and have a looksey at my tummy to make sure it's not an ulcer. What?? Since when did this present like an ulcer. I have gallstones. You can point to them on the scan. Take it out jerk. Ahhhhhhh.

Gallstones

So, for those of you who don't know Gallstones are pebble like deposits in the gallbladder. They can be very painful. They can lead to more dangerous problems like rupturing of the gallbladder or infections. There is something like an 80% chance that they'll want to remove the gallbladder if you have symptoms from gallstones. There are non surgical options but from the reading I've been doing they're not very effective.

I'll let you know what my doctor says when I see him in the afternoon. I'm very happy that I have my neighbor who works in the hospital all my doctors do.

http://digestive.niddk.nih.gov/ddiseases/pubs/gallstones/
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/gallstones/DS00165